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The Story at This Moment
Sep. 5th, 2008 11:27 pmThis semester is continuing to hold the promise of true greatness or amazing suckitude. The really positive thing is that I am excited about all my classes. My scene painting class is becoming less of a chore and more of a challenge. I spent roughly 4 hours working on my assignment for that class today. Most of the time I was working on it I was talking with random theatre folk that roamed into the scene shop. For all the awesomeness that is scene painting class, the downside with the class is that the professor switches between liking me and not.
While with some small downsides school is going sportingly other aspects of my life leave something(or many things) to be desired. I need to shake things up soon. I haven't really shaken things up on purpose since april/may of 07. Back then I decided that I was the only one responsible for my happiness. While this is an idea I try to abide by, sometimes to my regret I forget about it for a while. I feel comfortable enough to try changing other ideas I have about life and how I live life.
While looking back at the decisions I made with the mindset of me being responsible for my own happiness. Some of them where great success. Among other things getting into soccer and joining the RCB is continuing to be a source of happiness. Joining the RCB also reminded or taught me that for everything in life you do you get more out it if you put more into it. For all the positive this has had there have been some downsides as there are with any course of action. I have turned even more inverted. I need to think of other people more and with more compassion. I need to be more comfortable in social situations.
I think to achieve these goals I need to be a little more assertive in life. While I am overall happy; I want more satisfaction and therein lies the rub. Maybe I need to risk some of my friendships and relative peace with people in my daily life to become a better more content person. Maybe I need to make a enemy to find a true friend. Hell maybe I even need to ask someone out to a date.
While with some small downsides school is going sportingly other aspects of my life leave something(or many things) to be desired. I need to shake things up soon. I haven't really shaken things up on purpose since april/may of 07. Back then I decided that I was the only one responsible for my happiness. While this is an idea I try to abide by, sometimes to my regret I forget about it for a while. I feel comfortable enough to try changing other ideas I have about life and how I live life.
While looking back at the decisions I made with the mindset of me being responsible for my own happiness. Some of them where great success. Among other things getting into soccer and joining the RCB is continuing to be a source of happiness. Joining the RCB also reminded or taught me that for everything in life you do you get more out it if you put more into it. For all the positive this has had there have been some downsides as there are with any course of action. I have turned even more inverted. I need to think of other people more and with more compassion. I need to be more comfortable in social situations.
I think to achieve these goals I need to be a little more assertive in life. While I am overall happy; I want more satisfaction and therein lies the rub. Maybe I need to risk some of my friendships and relative peace with people in my daily life to become a better more content person. Maybe I need to make a enemy to find a true friend. Hell maybe I even need to ask someone out to a date.
